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Love ♥

I have a secret.  Want to hear it?  Okay, here it is… I’m in love!

I’m actually feeling giddy!  I’ve had crushes before, but they were more being in love with the idea of being in love.  THIS is the real thing!  AHHH I’m so happy!

I feel like singing that song, “I’m in love, I’m in love, I’m in love with a wonderful man!”

Just wait until I tell you about my sweetheart – SUCH a special guy!

ALL DAY I’ve been thinking about the love we share ♥.  He really understands me, like no one ever has!  He’s my BEST FRIEND.  He and I spend a lot of time talking together, and just a lot of time together in general.  I wish it were more time :(.  It could be, I suppose.  He is available to me whenever I make the time – an UNBELIEVABLY great person, wouldn’t you say?!

Songs of Solomon was a book in the Bible I never had very much reason to pay close attention to before.  Now, I see how it is truly describing the way I feel!  I won’t put all the verses here – you should look them up yourself! – but I will tell you that Songs of Solomon 2:16 is perfectly describing our relationship.  “My beloved is mine, and I am his:…”  *sigh*

It’s crazy – if you’ve ever been in love,  you can probably identify with how I’m feeling.  The more time we spend together, the more time I want us to spend together!  He gives me everything possible – everything I could ever ask for!  Although, if something isn’t good for me, I won’t get it.  My sweetie wants to take care of me and protect me from dangers I don’t realize are there.  I’m SO blessed!

You might know my sweetie.  His name might be familiar to you.

So, here goes… I’m in love with…

Jesus.

“Jesus – Lover of my soul!  Jesus – I will never let You go!  You carried me from the miry clay!  You set my feet upon the Rock, and now I know… I love You!  I need You!  Though the world may fall, I’ll never let You go!  My Savior!  My closest Friend!  I will worship You, until the very end!”

Humor aside – I’m totally serious.  Sitting in church today, I felt such a giddy feeling – my Jesus loves me.  ME!  The one who has let Him down time and again.  The one who sometimes struggles to keep my attitude where it should be.  The one who is really pretty selfish, when it all comes down to it.  Me?!  I don’t know how, or why, He loves me, only that He does.  The best part is, that love will never die.  Love between a man and woman might cool or disappear entirely; but the love that Jesus has for me will never change.  Though I grieve Him, He still loves me.  He is my Bridegroom, and I am His bride.  Like any relationship, this one takes work; that’s my job, however, since Jesus is always there when I need Him.  For our relationship to succeed, I need to spend more time going through the instruction manual (like I would for a new appliance).  I’m talking about the Bible, of course!  🙂  Also, as any happy couple knows, communication is key.  I have to talk to Him, let Him know what I’m thinking and how I’m feeling.  I also need to let Him know what He means to me, and what I think of Him.  That’s easy – I think He’s awesome!!!

I don’t want our relationship to suffer, so I’m going to put more work into it than I ever have before.  My biggest responsibility to make this relationship better than it has ever been is actually pretty easy; I just need to praise Him, for everything.

“Blessed be the Lord God of Israel from everlasting to everlasting: and let all the people say, Amen.  Praise ye the Lord.”  Psalms 106:48

“Praise ye the Lord.  I will praise the Lord with my whole heart, in the assembly of the upright, and in the congregation.”  Psalms 111:1

“Praise ye the Lord.  Blessed is the man that feareth the Lord, that delighteth greatly in His commandments.”  Psalms 112:1

“O praise the Lord, all ye nations: praise Him, all ye people.”  Psalms 117:1

“Praise ye the Lord.  Praise ye the Name of the Lord; praise him, o ye servants of the Lord.”  Psalms 135:1

“Praise ye the Lord.  Praise God in His sanctuary: praise Him in the firmament of His power.  Praise Him for His mighty acts: praise Him according to His excellent greatness.  Praise Him with the sound of the trumpet: praise Him with the psaltery and harp.  Praise Him with the timbrel and dance: praise him with the stringed instruments and organs.  Praise Him upon the loud cymbals: praise Him upon the high sounding cymbals.  Let everything that hath breath praise the Lord.  Praise ye the Lord.”  Psalms 150:1-6

I love You, Jesus, Lover of my soul!

“I will sing unto the Lord as long as I live: I will sing praise to my God while I have my being.  My meditation of Him shall be sweet: I will be glad in the Lord.”  Psalms 104:33-34

Being Single

It can be so hard sometimes, being single.  I love my life, I love where God has me right now, I love the fact that He’s working on my heart to make me a better person and to have a closer walk with Him.

It can still be hard, being single.

There was a wedding shower at my church today for a great couple.  They are so sweet and kind!  I had to kick him out of the kitchen area – he was going to help set up the drinks, hand out food, etc.  They are both hard workers!  You can always count on them to help out wherever needed and, most of all, to do it to the best of their ability with a willing heart.  I truly love them!

But as I was standing there, helping direct games, announcing different things, etc., it hit me that I’m approaching the last year of my 20’s.  I know, I’m still young.  Many people out there wish they were my age.  I have plenty of time.  Yes, I’ve heard it all.  But, for me, right now is hard.  I have learned to be content – I am content with where God has me.  I don’t mind being single.  That doesn’t mean it isn’t hard sometimes, especially when you see others finding the soulmate God picked out for them.  I know that, if it’s His will for me to marry someday, He already has the man that is right for me all picked out, and He’s just waiting for the right time to bring the two of us together.  But it’s hard to be patient, ya know?

Then again, He might have a plan for me to remain single.  I know there’s no way I could do as much in ministry as I currently am if I were married.  And right now, I’m needed (that’s a good feeling!).  But that can be hard, too, when you can’t tell if your efforts are making a difference or not.

Even writing this blog has become an exercise in patience; I don’t even know if anyone’s really reading it.  Will they read it when they see the title?  Or the first few sentences about being single?  Maybe.  Maybe I can help someone who struggles with the same things I do, can help them to learn from my mistakes and my trials.

So what’s a gal to do?  Read my Bible.  Pray.  The only thing that helps me to get out of the “poor me, I’m single” dumps is to pray, and remember that Jesus is the Lover of my soul!  He is my Bridegroom; He is the One that will never, EVER leave me or forsake me!  Though it is nice to have friends, as long as I have my Friend that showed me true love – “Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends” – I can muddle on without them.  I love my friends, and I know they love me – but, sorry ya’ll, I love Jesus more :).  And if Mr. Right never makes an appearance – I’ll be okay.  My Bridegroom is jealous – He wants me to love Him better than anything else!

It’s like one of my earlier blog posts – God knows the desires of my heart.  He also knows what is best for me.  I have to surrender my will to Him, humble myself to Him and pray that His will for me becomes my desires – that is, my desires change into what is in His will for me.  As my walk with God is getting closer than it’s ever been (another thing that would be hard to do if I were in a relationship), I’m finding it easier and easier to be content with where I am, while desiring more and more of God.

That doesn’t mean that I don’t struggle.  Because I do.  I’m  certainly not perfect.  And sometimes the struggles are hard to bear.  But the difference is – I know God is there to pick me up.  I know He will keep me from falling too far.  And I know that He has a perfect plan for me, and that His timing is perfect; I just need to be patient.

Ah, patience.  The most difficult virtue (for me, at least) to achieve.  Maybe God is trying to teach me something here… So grateful for my God – the Lover of my soul – Who cares enough about me to teach me something, even though I’ve failed Him so many times!

Maybe, just maybe, being single will help me attain a love for God so deep, a relationship with Him so strong, and a patience so real, that I will be able to help others find the same thing.

Being single?  Might be the perfect way to serve Him.